Letting Go

November 14, 2018 at 7:50:08 AM

Do you like the person that appears in the mirror? Is their gaze something that comforts you or taunts you? -December 5th, 2023

I am revisiting this subject almost 2 years later, mid November. Today the person I see in the mirror is someone who keeps me accountable.

In the past, they were someone I didn’t recognize. Their eyes filled with contempt, their expressions constantly changing, as if they were improvising a character in an attempt to please the person who was looking at them. Day by day they would try to fill the emptiness of their parallel. “Perhaps today they will look upon me with grace.” However, no matter how many times the reflection tried, their facades were as hollow as the vessel in front of them.

Eventually, I stopped visiting the person in the mirror. I spent time changing my environment, changing my routine, controlling my desires, setting new goals, working towards improving myself. Letting go of who I thought I was and embracing the person I was becoming.

After years of fighting for my improvement I remembered the person who would meet me in the mirror. I decided to visit them, see how they were doing. When we met eyes I smiled. Their smile was warm, their expression beaming with positivity. Finally I felt peace.

The mirror is now a place of harmony. Where once there was toxic introspection there is now gratitude.

All praise be to God.